Oranges And Cream

Posted on January 29, 2007


Week 15

Baby’s Length: 4 in.

Baby’s Weight: 1.75 oz.

Baby’s Size: Orange

It’s scary to think about how big the baby is already. By the first week of March, I will be half way through my pregnancy. It seems like just yesterday I was fretting over whether the pregnancy test was really positive or not. And look at how far I’ve come from then. It’s just really hard to believe when you sit back and think about it. I guess time really does fly when you’re having fun!

I’m sorry if all of my posts are about baby related things nowadays. My world kinda revolves around my pregnancy right now. And besides… my blog really wasn’t that interesting before anyway. At least I actually have something to blog about now, even if it’s not all that interesting!

Let’s see… something not baby related… Ah yes! Dan and I finally found the perfect apartment! We went to see it on Saturday and both of us loved it. Dan was very skeptical about moving before because he really didn’t like any of the apartments we went to see, but when he saw this one, I think he fell in love.

It’s a 1 bedroom, unlike all the 2 bedrooms apartments we went to see before. However, it’s twice the size of most of the 2 bedroom apartments we looked at. At only $850 a month with water, electric, and heat included, well you can’t get any better than that! It has a large kitchen with plenty of storage and counter tops, a good sized living room with a big window, a very large bedroom with a huge walk-in closet, and a really nice bathroom with storage under the sink as well as a bunch of shelving in the corners. The best part? The washer and dryer/laundry room is right outside of our front door and we only share it with one other apartment. Sounds too good to be true, doesn’t it?

Dan is bringing the completed application by the landlord’s office today. The Landlord is a RE/MAX real estate agent. I don’t think “Landlord” is his primary occupation though. Seems like it’s just a side job/hobby for him.

If you are the praying type, please pray that we get this apartment!! If we do, we will be moving in two weeks. I can’t wait!!!!!!!!!!! I just want to settle in somewhere where I will be comfortable and WARM!

Now, if you know anything about me, you know that I try to be ultra prepared. Remember when I was moving down from Northern Maine to Southern Maine and I packed everything about 2 weeks before we actually had to move and I spent the last week in that apartment trying to live around piles of boxes that were stacked to the ceiling? Well, I decided not to do that this time around.

And you remember how I packed everything in neat little boxes and taped purple index cards that were neatly labeled on each box? Yeah, not going to do that either. Mostly because, everything I packed in August is still packed. I only need to pack up a bunch of clothes, pots and pans, a few small dishes and plates, and towels, shampoo etc. Since I will be at my in-laws until we move, I won’t have barely any time at all to go back to the campground and pack up those few things. When we go there with the U-Haul, I will have to throw all of the already packed items from August into the truck and then throw all the remaining unpacked items in black trash bags to save time. THAT should be interesting…

Something I can rest easy about – I am almost done buying the majority of things that I need for the baby. Talk about prepared in advance! I know, I know… I just like to get things done and out of the way as quickly as possible so that if something comes up at the last minute, I don’t have to worry. The only items I have left to buy are the big items like the crib, the changing table, the bureau, and the rocking chair, as well as a few standard items like diapers, onesies, bottles, etc.

I don’t remember if I mentioned it before, but I decided to do the nursery in the Classic Winnie The Pooh theme. I much prefer the old pooh to the new pooh, although I grew up watching the “new pooh” on TV. If you aren’t familiar with pooh, here is a quick reference to go by:

Classic Pooh           Modern Pooh

 

So I have been buying all things Classic Pooh. I got the crib bumper, blankets, crib sheets, dust ruffle, crib toy, stuffed pooh (and his friends), and more. I’ve been able to find everything I want and more on eBay for less than half the price it would cost in stores. Plus, Target seems to have the rights to selling all things classic pooh, and I won’t shop at Target because they support abortion. So, the only other place I could buy the classic pooh items was on eBay!

And I’ll admit, I’ve also bought a few non-gender specific baby clothes that are also “Classic Pooh” and are mostly cream colored. I hate pink and blue clothes anyway. It’s so cliché! I never wore pink when I was a baby… I’m going to wait until I find out the sex of the baby before I buy more clothing, but I do like the things I already bought and they are perfect, no matter what the gender is.

Now I have a question for you guys… When you were pregnant with your first baby, did you have a baby shower? If so, did you get to plan it yourself, or was it a surprise baby shower thrown for you by a close friend? I’ve been told that you are “not allowed” to plan your own baby shower and I tend to believe that is hogwash, so I am wondering what your thoughts are on this. Please let me know!!!

Filed under: Pregnancy , Pro-Life



Friday Musings

Posted on January 26, 2007

I just upgraded to the newest version of WordPress. So far, I like it alot, but there are still a few things I am trying to figure out. For some reason my links aren’t showing up in the sidebar to the right. Be patient with me though! I just need time… and more brain cells.

When I woke up this morning it was -5° outside and about 50° inside. Just toasty, eh?

On a happier, warmer note — I went for a sonogram last night! Got to hear the baby’s heartbeat for the first time. I’m now convinced there is actually a baby in there!!! lol

I need to go for a dating ultrasound soon because none of us can figure out how far along I am. I calculated 14 weeks along by now, but if my calculations were correct, according to when I ovulated, I also wouldn’t be pregnant! So I suspect I am at least 15 weeks into this pregnancy. I need to find out soon! Gosh, who knows… I could be 20 weeks and not know it.

Dan and I took a trip down to Massachusetts to go see my primary physician so I could finally get my prescription for Advair renewed. My asthma has been soooo bad for the past 3 weeks, since I ran out of my meds. One more week without it and I definitely would have gone into the hospital. Luckily though, I have it now and I am breathing much better today. Being able to breath is a luxury that most people take advantage of.

After a visit to my doctor, we went to take a tour of a birthing center nearby. They offer things like home birth, water birth, prenatal yoga classes, lactation consultation, and all kinds of great stuff. I was very interested in the water birth, which was how I found the birthing center to begin with.

The woman who ran the place was extremely easy to get along with, very find, polite, and warm. She explained everything about the center and answered all of our questions. It was a great experience.

After much thought and talking, Dan and I decided that we were going to have our baby at that birthing center. I am very excited that we finally made a decision and it is one that I am very comfortable and happy with. However, when we told the mom-in-law, she almost had a stroke. She hates midwives and natural birth options, etc. But that’s okay. To each his own!!

Much to my disgust, we are still looking for an apartment. Picky? Yeah, I guess we are. I don’t want to spend 1/2 of my husband’s paycheck each month on a tiny apartment in the bad side of town. All the good apartments in our price range don’t allow dogs. It just seems ridiculous! However, we do have faith that we will soon find an apartment that is affordable and has the amenities we are looking for. Please keep us in your prayers!!

Filed under: Everyday Life , Pregnancy



Get A Better Browser

Posted on January 19, 2007

Tell me… why is there anyone left on this planet who uses Internet Explorer???

Is it because they are lazy and don’t feel like getting something better? Is it because they are afraid of having to learn how to use a new browser? Or is it simple because they just don’t know any better?

If you spend more than 1 hour a day on the internet, you will find huge benefits to downloading a better browser.

Let me introduce you to a little miracle called Firefox. If you already use it, congrats to you!! If you don’t, and you’ve heard of it before, how come you haven’t downloaded it yet?!?!?!?!

Benefits to using Firefox:

    1.) A huge decrease in the number of deadly computer Viruses entering your computer.

    2.) Websites display properly as the programing for Firefox is done correctly. If you enjoy HTML or building websites, you will notice this immediately.

    3.) Faster page loads. Firefox works faster and more streamline on your computer and doesn’t freeze up constantly like Internet Explorer does.

    4.) More options. Firefox keeps your browsing sessions a lot more secure and spyware-free. And to top it all off, it also supports the standards religiously and has a wide range of powerful features.

    5.) Tabbed browsing. Instead of having many windows open, you only have one window open with many tabs. This keeps your computer running faster and your taskbar a lot less cluttered.

    6.) Built in spell checker. Never make spelling mistakes again!

    7.) Firefox offers a wide variety of Themes to give your browser the look you want. I use Noia 2.0 Extreme. You can download as many different themes as you want and change them to suit your mood.

    8.) You can also download many different of Extensions and Plugins. Below is a list of all the Extensions I have and use daily.

Extensions I Use

* Clippings 2.5 (awesome for bloggers)
* AdBlock Plus (blocks ads and popups)
* Colorful Tabs (fun extension)
* CoLT (my fav extension)
* ConQuery (looks things up quicker)
* FireFoxMenuButtons (very handy)
* Forecastfox (local weather on your browser)
* FoxyTunes (controls any media player)
* ShortShip Pro (Sort eBay listings by total cost)
* Tab Mix Plus (best extension ever)
* Download Statusbar (view and manage downloads)

Are you convinced yet? Take the Firefox Challenge. Download Firefox and use it for one week or at least 10 hours. Take a look at all the cool extensions, the colorful themes, and experience how much faster and easier Firefox is to use. I guarantee that you will be addicted!

If you already use Firefox, leave a comment and share with us all the reasons why you love Firefox.

Filed under: Recommended , Technology



Belly – Week 13

Posted on January 17, 2007

My belly is getting rounder all the time. My mother-in-law is convinced I am having a boy because I’m growing so fast!!

When I first found out that I was pregnant, I immediately told my husband that it was a boy. Ever since then though, I have held my hopes out for a girl. Can’t know yet though… Have 3 or 4 weeks to go before you can accurately tell the sex of the baby, although technically it’s sex organs are almost fully formed at this point.

Before I got pregnant, I looked for blogs that documented pregnancies, but it doesn’t seem to be a popular blogging subject. Either that, or I didn’t search very well.

My friend Tammie, over at Soul Gardening has posted a couple belly pics and I enjoy that immensely. I wish more people would do that!! Pregnant bellies are so gorgeous. At least I think so…

I haven’t bought many maternity clothes yet. I have 3 pairs of maternity pants, a few tank tops that I wear underneath my 1 maternity cardigan, 1 turtleneck shirt, 3 long sleeve shirts shirts, and 2 beautiful dresses that I bought at Motherhood Maternity in the mall. I bought this beautiful brown one and this gorgeous kimono style dress. I’m wearing the brown one in this picture!

My favorite maternity item so far is a pair of brown pants I bought at Old Navy. They have a wide waist band you can fold over. Plus, they are super soft, making them uberly comfy.

What maternity clothing did you get the most out of during your pregnancy? Were there certain items you wouldn’t have been able to live without? Please tell!

Filed under: Belly Pics , Pregnancy



Shuffle And Kick

Posted on January 15, 2007


Week 13

Baby’s Length: 3 inches

Baby’s Weight: 0.75 ounces

Baby’s Size: iPod Shuffle

Last week, I felt strange little feelings in my abdomen. It happened only a few times, and I couldn’t tell what it was. I questioned whether it was the baby or not, but passed it off as my stomach gurgling.

On Wednesday (1/10) I was laying on my back next to Dan on my mother-in-law’s water bed when I felt it again. It made me remember that she had told me only a few weeks earlier that I should be able to touch my abdomen and feel my uterus growing in size. I wasn’t able to find it the first time I looked for it, so I asked for further instruction. This time I was able to find it with ease and was quite surprised at how large it felt!!

I gently prodded at it and moved it back and forth from side to side in amazement at it’s mass and the odd sensation I felt inside. Seconds later, I felt what seemed like a very pronounced thud in the middle of my uterus. “I think I just felt the baby!” I exclaimed and gently pressed my hand against my stomach. I waited another few seconds and felt it again! It was such a wonderfully odd feeling, but I knew right away that what I was feeling was my baby.

It happened several more times within a 5 minute span and I was absolutely delighted. I think moving my uterus around pissed off the baby! “Hey, who’s rocking the damn boat up there!!” I imagined it was thinking… (Yes, my baby swears already…)

Over the next few days, I felt it at least once a day at one point or another. It is easy to identify now and it makes me smile every time I feel it. My little baby is moving!

Growing a baby inside of you is such an amazing thing. It started off to be very taxing, but for the first time so far, I am actually enjoying this. Maybe being pregnant isn’t so miserable afterall.

According to what I read online, the baby is actually starting to look like a baby now. It has tiny fingers and toes!

Swellings on the side of the neck show where the baby’s ears will be, and the insides of the ears are forming. On the head are the start of lips on a mouth that can already open and close, and a bit of a nose. Eyelids, which will fuse together and stay closed for a few months, are growing over developing eyes.

The reproductive organs are among the last to form. In the middle of the month, testes have formed in boys and ovaries in girls, but the external sex organs still look similar in both sexes. Hopefully by the first week of February though, I will be able to have an ultrasound that will determine whether we are having a girl or a boy.

I’m totally routing for a girl, but I have the distinct feeling that it’s a boy. Call it mother’s intuition.

Filed under: Pregnancy



Play-Doh In My Tummy

Posted on January 08, 2007


Week 12

Baby’s Length: 2.5 inches

Baby’s Weight: 0.5 ounces

Baby’s Size: Container of Play-Doh

Lunar Month 4, 12 wks LMP (10 wks gestation)

No wonders why I feet fat and bloated. It’s that little bucket of Play-Doh in my tummy! Now if that doesn’t give someone morning sickness, I don’t know what would…

My biggest complaint however, is not morning sickness. I’ve learned how to avoid inevitable barfing. I’ve learned what things feel good in my stomach and which ones definitely, do not. I’m still getting used to the cravings, but those are pretty tolerable right now. The one thing I can’t stand is the nasal congestion.

Pregnancy.org says: “Feeling congested? Nasal congestion is common during pregnancy from swelling in the mucous membranes.”

I have had a continuous sinus headache since week 4 or 5. It feels like I have a sinus infection all the time. Some days are worse than others, and so far I haven’t found anything that helps. I keep a box of tissues with me at all times and everyone around me has gotten pretty used to me blaring my fog horn at all hours of the day. I swear, I should invest in stocks in the tissue company. I would get rich.

I didn’t realize that there were this many changes so early in pregnancy. For the first few weeks I was pregnant, I didn’t dare vocalize all the things that were going on and changing in my body because I was afraid that people wouldn’t believe me and think I was being over dramatic. (I can be pretty dramatic sometimes.)

Previously, before getting pregnant, I didn’t think that early pregnancy was that hard to deal with except for the morning sickness. I didn’t think my boobs suddenly going up a cup size was going to be that big of a deal. Sounded kinda cool, but I didn’t think it would hurt so damn bad! I didn’t think that I would get back aches and headaches. Isn’t that for after the baby is born and you have to listen to it scream and carry it around all the time? I didn’t think I would have to get up and pee 4-8 times in the middle of the night. I thought that was only for late pregnancy! Boy was I wrong.

I now realize that those “early pregnancy symptoms” are for real early and it just gets worse from there!

Now, there are so many different things going on, I can barely remember what’s happening this week, what’s supposed to happen next week, and what stopped happening last week!

Filed under: Pregnancy



Belly – Week 11

Posted on January 06, 2007

Not very impressive, I know. But I did promise you a belly pic and here it is!

When you consider what my stomach used to look like, this is pretty shocking! At least for me it is… I used to be a professional dancer. I danced for 16 years. A lot of things happened that made me stop dancing. My dance school closed and 6 months later I was in a bad car accident that I still haven’t fully recovered from.

I haven’t danced for a couple years, but I still had a dancer’s body up until about 3 months ago. I made a point to exercise as much as possible and eat healthy to keep my figure.

I normally have a 27 inch waist (24-25 when I was dancing). Right now, I measure about 35 inches around the middle. Where is my waist going?! Bye byes…

This is what my stomach used to look like… Very, very tiny! I know that will now be a memory because this isn’t the last baby I’m going to have. By the time I’m done having babies, I’ll need a tummy tuck and a boob lift to put everything back where it belongs.

I have found that it’s very easy to get depressed about this in particular. I used to be very concerned about what I looked like all the time. When I was much younger, my mom taught me to be anorexic as if it was a healthy way of life. After getting married, I slowly got up to a healthy weight and started eating more than salads and fruit.

Even though I’ve learned how to eat healthier, I still find it impossible to let go of the body image anorexia creates in your mind. It’s hard to look in the mirror and think that I look “ok”. Everybody used to tell me that I was too skinny, but I didn’t think I was.

Now that I’m pregnant and I’ve seen my weight go up 10 pounds in 3 months and my waist go from 27 inches to about 35, and well… it’s disconcerting! For some reason, I’m not freaking out about it though. I’m happily eating and bragging about my weight gain. I still fear that after I have the baby, I’ll never like my body ever again.

But, can’t worry myself about that right now! Got better things to think about like, where the hell am I going to live?!!

Apartment hunting is not going well. We found several places that are okay, but nothing that we really like. Dan is on a role to buy a house now. I just want a place to live!! A place to call home… I guess all good things take time. You can’t rush God…

Damn I wish I could though.

Filed under: Belly Pics , Pregnancy



Preggerventures

Posted on January 04, 2007

Are you ready to get right down to the nitty gritty of pregnancy? Are you ready for all the gooey, graphic details, the mood swings, and the ramblings of utter nonsense? God I hope so…

My friend Barry said it best, when he came up with the term, “Preggerventures”. I love it! haha I don’t know if he invented it, or it’s just a term that I’ve never heard before, but I think it’s adorable. I think it should definitely be in the dictionary.

Baby-Parenting.com has this to say about month 3 of pregnancy? “You may be suffering from mood swings, this is very common during pregnancy. It is partly due to the change in hormones in your body and partly due to the very emotional event which is occurring.” Emotional event indeed! I don’t know whether I’m coming or going… happy or sad… Why doesn’t anyone warn you, “Hey Lady, you know… when you get pregnant, you are going to cry when you see commercials for Wendy’s and McDonalds.” I mean really, someone should have warned me. It’s only fair.

Pregnancy cravings are almost unexplainable. In the middle of the day, for absolutely no reason, I will suddenly blurt out something like, “Pizza! Yes, I want pizza.” or “Mmmm… I could totally go for some Mexican food right now.” and the worst part is, once you have a craving for a certain food, you don’t want to eat anything else. All other food makes your stomach turn and you immediately feel like you want to hurl. What other people call “Morning Sickness” I call “24 hour non-stop nausea”.

And then there’s what I like to call “The Crash Downs”. It feels like a sugar high and a sugar low happening at the same time. It comes on suddenly and you can’t do anything about it. You want to jump on a treadmill but you just don’t have the gosh darn energy to do it.

All the pregnancy books and websites out there tell you to rest. “Take a nap in the afternoon if you feel tired,” they say. That way you don’t feel guilty sleeping when there is housework to be done. About a week before I found out I was pregnant, I started to get really tired around 4:00 or 5:00 in the evening. If I didn’t get to bed by 10:00pm, I would get a headache. Now this was very unusual for me because my normal bedtime was between midnight and 1:30am. Yeah, I used to be a night person… but I’m not anymore.

I had to take 2-3 hour naps in the afternoon and sleep for 10-12 hours at night when I was between week 7 and week 9 of pregnancy. I was completely exhausted all the time, from doing absolutely nothing at all! Well, at least that’s the way it seems. I wish I had a little window on my stomach so I could see everything going on in there so I could appreciate more all the work my poor body is doing.

In all honesty, I love being pregnant. I don’t intend for my blog to turn into a baby blog, but I have a feeling I might not have too much else to talk about for a while. I had so much trouble posting Life In Between, Patience Is A Virtue, and Internet Harassment. I wanted so much to talk about how I felt about all this, but I knew it wasn’t the right time yet. However I couldn’t keep my mouth shut any longer. So, I spilled the beans. I think it will do me good to talk about it.

Oh and thank you for all the wonderful, supportive comments that all of you left on the last three posts. I truly appreciate it and it makes me feel good to know that you care. :kissing:

Filed under: Pregnancy



Change Is Good

Posted on January 02, 2007

I had a lovely evening at my brother’s house on Wednesday night and Thursday morning, I helped my SIL Anne Marie prepare Thanksgiving dinner.

Sometime in the early afternoon, I went to the bathroom and realized that I had spotted. I thought that I had finally started my period or had a miscarriage and I felt absolutely devastated. I couldn’t help but cry. My husband held me tight and comforted me and told me everything would be all right.

The next day, after spending a second night sleeping overnight at my brother’s house, I became a little depressed. Still thinking I had started my period, I had a few drinks with Anne and a little later in the evening, the 4 of us drank two very expensive bottles of champagne.

We ended up staying overnight at Zach’s till Monday. By then, I realized that what I had experienced was not my period or a miscarriage… It was implantation bleeding.

Early Monday morning, we packed up and left my brother’s house to go to Danny’s follow-up interview in Billerica, MA where he would meet the boss and sign the contract. They told him that he would start work the following week. What a relief! We were both so happy about his new job.

From there, we drove to Options For Women. To our surprise, it was located three buildings down from the church we got married in. That was a pleasant surprise. I suddenly felt more confident again. The woman at the front desk was very sweet and we soon realized that OFW was actually a Christian organization. That made me feel even better.

The pregnancy tests they offered were a little different than what I was used to. You used a little dropper and placed 4 small drops onto the test instead of peeing on a stick. We were actually able to perform the test ourselves, making it a very hands-on experience that we’ll never forget.

I was too afraid to look at the test, so I nervously talked to the woman, as Danny kept his eyes glued to the test. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw the expression on his face change and his whole face lit up. He told me to look at the test and bravely, I obeyed. “It’s positive!” he exclaimed! I looked down and there it was… 2 bold pink lines. The woman agreed happily and announced, “You’re pregnant! How do you feel?” I was so happy I could barely talk. I knew I would remember November 27th for a very long time.

She took us into another room and asked us some more questions, to make sure we knew what what going on and what we had gotten ourselves into. She gave us several booklets and showed us how big the baby was, and told us that our due date was July 19th, 2007. It was all so surreal!

As we walked out the door and headed for our car, neither Danny nor I could wipe the smiles off our faces. I don’t think either of us had ever been that happy before! We immediately drove to his parent’s house to tell them the good news. They were both so happy for us. I haven’t been able to function ever since.

It’s now January 2nd, 2007 and I have been visibly showing for almost 2 weeks now. My belly button has moved up 2 inches and none of my pants fit me. I am now 11 weeks pregnant and my actual due date is July 22nd. The baby is about 2 inches long and weighs about half an ounce. The baby is about the size of an apricot and looks similar to the fetus in the picture to the right. Isn’t it so cute and tiny?!

I’ve told almost all of Danny’s family and relatives, my best friend Jaclyn and her boyfriend Elijah, as well as my friend Cindi and my chiropractor. I also told Zach and Anne a few days before Christmas when we went to visit them again. So far, everyone we’ve told has been really happy for us.

I haven’t told my mom yet and I don’t want to. I’ve had nightmares about telling her ever since I found out I was indeed pregnant. I keep joking that I’ll let the baby tell her…

I’m now coming out the other end of the morning sickness phase, seeing as how I am almost to my second trimester. My morning sickness was never really bad, but there were days I couldn’t get out of bed. Luckily, I never actually vomited. I just felt like it and threatened it for like 4 weeks!

I’ve gained about 8 pounds so far, my I know most of it is water weight and from all the food I’ve been eating! I normally have a 27 inch waist and 30 inch hips and I now measure 34 inches around the middle. At first, I just looked bloated. Now, I actually look pregnant. It’s so neat and I love it!

So yeah… I’m pregnant! What do you think about that?

Filed under: Pregnancy



Ch Ch Ch Changes

Posted on January 01, 2007

November 22nd, the morning after I took the first pregnancy test, I woke up 6:00am. My husband had a couple of job interviews he had to go to that day in Manchester, NH and Billerica, MA. We had decided that if the second pregnancy test was also positive, we would go to the Planned Parenthood Center in Manchester just to take one more test and get it confirmed.

I took the second pregnancy test no more than 5 minutes after waking up. My eyes weren’t even fully open yet. However, they did work enough to see that this test was also positive. The line was light, but definitely darker than the day before. I seriously started to freak!

I wanted to be pregnant so badly, but was afraid to believe that it was finally happening. I had so many doubts running through my mind, that I couldn’t let myself get happy yet because I was so afraid that if I did… it would all go away.

Danny’s first interview went well and afterwards we drove straight to the PP Center. When we got there, a well dressed woman carrying a Prada handbag met us in the parking lot. She didn’t introduce herself, but I noticed she had anti-abortion and pro-life bumper stickers on her bran new van. She persuaded us to go to the Care Net Pregnancy Center right down the street because they didn’t encourage or perform abortions there. That sounded like a much better option to me, considering I am ferociously pro-life.

We agreed to follow her there. Unfortunately when we arrived and the woman parked her vehicle, she accidentally hit the van in front of her. I felt really bad that she had a fender bender because she was really trying to be nice to us and do something good by steering us away from the PP Center. I got the impression that this was what she did all day… I don’t think she had any kids though.

The Care Net Pregnancy Center didn’t open until 10:00am so we had to wait around for about 35 minutes, which seemed like the longest 35 minutes of my life. It seemed like I would never know for sure whether I was really pregnant or not. I’ll tell you right now, it definitely wasn’t under the circumstances that I had expected. All I kept saying to Danny was, “This is SO WEIRD! I can’t believe this is happening!”

They finally opened the front doors and let us in where we sat in a waiting room for an additional ten minutes. As soon as I got in there, I ran to the bathroom because I had to pee so bad I thought I was going to burst! I felt much better afterwards, but that didn’t get my nerves much. While I sat there impatiently, I filled out some paperwork and tried to stay calm. Each second that passed felt like a minute. Every minute that passed felt like an hour. I hadn’t been that stressed out in at least a couple years!

After an eternity and a half, they sent me into the bathroom with a cup.

Warning: TMI below!

I had a feeling that this wasn’t going to go well. It suddenly dawned on me when I went in there that I had just peed only 8 or 9 minutes earlier! Not only did I not have to pee, it was about 10:15am and this was by far, not my “morning sample”. I managed to squeeze several drops out, but I knew it wasn’t enough.

End TMI

I left my sample in the bathroom, where they had instructed me to. Soon after that, they brought Danny and I into a elegantly decorated room where we sat down on a comfy sofa and spoke to a kind woman. She had us fill out a little more paperwork and she talked with us about how we would feel if the results were positive.

Several minutes later, a nurse came into the room with my test results. She showed us the two lines on the test and it looked exactly like the test I took earlier that morning. She said that it was positive, but that she had to call it a negative because she was supposed to read the official test result at the 3 minutes mark and the positive line didn’t show up on my test until the 4 minutes mark. Talk about frustration!

They said that for legal reasons, they had to tell me that it was negative, but that I was most likely pregnant and should take another test in a few days.

They also explained that it probably took a minute for the results to show up because my sample was diluted and not a “morning sample”. Another possibility was the Hcg levels could be low because I was so small and skinny and things could be progressing slowly. Still, it wasn’t what I wanted to hear. I wanted them to tell me, “Congrats! You’re pregnant!”

My husband was still convinced I was pregnant though. As far as he was concerned, there were three positive pregnancy tests and that was enough to prove to him that I was knocked up!

Before leaving the Care Net Pregnancy Center, they gave me the telephone numbers and addresses for a couple other places I could go to get another free pregnancy test. Unfortunately, the next day was Thanksgiving, nobody was open on weekends, so I had to wait until Monday to get tested again! I had to wait 5 more days! I thought for sure, I was going to lose my mind…

We left Care Net and went to Danny’s second interview, which went extremely well as you know. (He got the job!) He came out grinning ear to ear and I knew things were only going to go up from there.

That night, we went to my brother’s house. It was the first time I had seen him in almost 3 years. We hadn’t spoken in over 1 year. But that’s a story for another time… In short, everything went much better than I expected.

Very suddenly everything seemed right in the world for the first time in a long time. All was as it should be, it seemed.

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