Not very impressive, I know. But I did promise you a belly pic and here it is!
When you consider what my stomach used to look like, this is pretty shocking! At least for me it is… I used to be a professional dancer. I danced for 16 years. A lot of things happened that made me stop dancing. My dance school closed and 6 months later I was in a bad car accident that I still haven’t fully recovered from.
I haven’t danced for a couple years, but I still had a dancer’s body up until about 3 months ago. I made a point to exercise as much as possible and eat healthy to keep my figure.
I normally have a 27 inch waist (24-25 when I was dancing). Right now, I measure about 35 inches around the middle. Where is my waist going?! Bye byes…
This is what my stomach used to look like… Very, very tiny! I know that will now be a memory because this isn’t the last baby I’m going to have. By the time I’m done having babies, I’ll need a tummy tuck and a boob lift to put everything back where it belongs.
I have found that it’s very easy to get depressed about this in particular. I used to be very concerned about what I looked like all the time. When I was much younger, my mom taught me to be anorexic as if it was a healthy way of life. After getting married, I slowly got up to a healthy weight and started eating more than salads and fruit.
Even though I’ve learned how to eat healthier, I still find it impossible to let go of the body image anorexia creates in your mind. It’s hard to look in the mirror and think that I look “ok”. Everybody used to tell me that I was too skinny, but I didn’t think I was.
Now that I’m pregnant and I’ve seen my weight go up 10 pounds in 3 months and my waist go from 27 inches to about 35, and well… it’s disconcerting! For some reason, I’m not freaking out about it though. I’m happily eating and bragging about my weight gain. I still fear that after I have the baby, I’ll never like my body ever again.
But, can’t worry myself about that right now! Got better things to think about like, where the hell am I going to live?!!
Apartment hunting is not going well. We found several places that are okay, but nothing that we really like. Dan is on a role to buy a house now. I just want a place to live!! A place to call home… I guess all good things take time. You can’t rush God…
Damn I wish I could though.